Life as it is
I know I have not blogged for awhile but my real, life not my fake, I`ll tell you only what I want you to hear life on the blog site, has been quite hectic. I actually have avoided blogging because I knew I would either be negative or depressing so I decided to spare anyone the emotional rollercoaster I`ve been on.
I`m leading a Bible study through our church on Wednesday nights, I of course feel absolutely inadequate to be leading but thank goodness God promises to be strong when I am weak. So really I`m not leading it He is, I`m just along to learn and grow too.
I have this stronghold of fearing man`s opinion of me or rather trying to please people due to insecurities from way back. I have dealt with a lot of crap but I still manage to fight the battle of acceptance. I know I`m complete in God but the old me still rears her ugly head and trys to convince me how useless I acually am. I long for a more peaceful state of mind but between P.M.S. and this battle life always seems to be a challenge. Oh well, gotta go cook supper and bake cookies and listen to praise music and work out. Maybe not in that order but it has to all get done. See ya, Cindy
posted by Cindy @ 2:10 PM
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7 Comments:
It is sometimes hard to view yourself as God does. But maybe this is what He will show you in this bible study. You taking that step of Faith says alot about your Trust in God. He will guide you through this inspite of the inadequacy you feel. As you seek Him you will be surprised at how you will grow and how you will really learn to see yourself as God does - wonderfully made!
Cindy, just remember that God wants you to succeed, and will support you in doing so. He doesn't want you to fail, and thus will never burden you with more than you can bear.
Of course, we are the one's who load up with too much. So, trim it down to God's level, and rest in Him.
And yes, I'm preaching to myself a bit here, too.
"Let the poor say, I am rich
Let the weak say, I am strong
Because of what the Lord has done for us"
His Spirit is with you.
He WILL bless you, whatever you do.
You would make a great Bible study leader, because of your faith. So many women suffer with PMS and depression, don't get down on yourself about it. I love you just the way you are.
Thanx guys for the encouragement, and as "Purpose Driven Life", says it is not about me. I just did a dramatic monologue skit for Easter Sunday and the Holy Spirit used it mightily, you could have heard a pin drop during it, people were captivated by the message. It was bacisally about Jesus on the cross and His moment of abandonment where He took our sins upon Himself for us. I was crying during it , so it made others cry too. If people can draw nearer to Christ when we humble ourself to be used by Him then praise be to Him.
The Bible study will prove to be challenging and a growing experience, although I`ve led studies before, this one already seems to be a fight. So many people with different opinions and strong personalities, I should feel right at home, I guess.
God Bless, Cindy
I love drama. I used to be in a drama group when I was younger. It was absolutely wonderful. Not that I was THAT GOOD or anything. But it felt so good to know that God was using me to touch lives. ME! It felt wonderful to be doing something for His Kingdom. I am sure God used you mightifully to bless others and in turn speak to you! Way to go!
You know . . . I would love a copy of that skit you did. I haven't been brave enough to post my email address on my website yet, but Darlene knows it. If you email her I am sure she could forward you my email address.
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